Poem : kind of Funny, wait for it

  For Steve the wicked, sexy cat, who broke my heart and more than that This fork in the world where you go left and I go right is where we finally part and never meet again in truth or sorrow. Never dare to kiss or miss me this dharma train moves only forward. You’ve…

Poem: is it you?

  https://unsplash.com/@eddyvanduijn For Spencer (This poem was written September 5, 2003, revised 1/12/19) How many more must leave? ben david and now steve How many more must I love before all good byes are over? How much more do I have to offer? How much more hope is left? Is this what it’s all about?…

Poem: Spencer’s xmas Tree

His eyes were crinkled like Santa Claus when he smiled even though he was young his soul was old ancient in time like mine. One Christmas he carried a 6ft live tree letting needles prick him for endless sidewalks, maybe 10 blocks for us to have a Happy Christmas he walked like Jesus gliding in…

Poem: Unrequited (haiku in 9 variations)

1) It feels like high school When I was a super fool Unrequited crush 2) Why does a crush hurt? Disappointment feels like loss Though it’s not real love 3) Imaginary Dreaming a future never Hope wasted pretend. 4) Peered eyes to my eyes Said I want to be just friends Nothing more again. 5)…

Poem: Self-love is the Cure for Narcissism

I love you, Judy Love your blue shadow play High browed golden laughter Love your fear of mosquitoes Your bleeding glass diamonds Your everlasting tears Your wanton lightning strike Your broken struggle Your falling into waking up Your purple root heart karma.

Poem: Tenderness

(For David T. who loved the unloveable in me) Maybe I never learned that I was good enough but with David I allowed it tenderness. He’s gone because I gave up I betrayed him and he was the kindest knight I ever loved but he was beyond my known beyond what I could trust I…

Poem: Genie Bottle

Bring you in a genie bottle drink you like elixir stand in full throttle laughing’s life’s surprise. I want you aging backwards reclaim your innocence our voices imitating rivers and flowers float into the space of your eyes enter your still silent gaze.    

Poem: Ambush

Why is it sudden fear Straitjacket atmosphere Disguise the surprise It hurts more than I thrill to surmise Your paradise is full of snakes.

Poem: Your smile

Inside between the folds layer like oyster swirled chiffon French doors are opening shining swift kingdom of sunlight Rose gold salivating rivers sheen like supple baby snake a finger lapping purely silvered ocean waves sleep into clouds marking an invisible lip or a twinkling scar mirrored up and over again under currents racing an avalanche…

Poem: Farewell Saboteur

For Steve the undiscovered star who could’ve been Mick Jagger in another lifetime my brother perhaps because despite the torturous poison there was love. Maybe if someone adopted him he’d be cured of rich boy anger, or in a future lifetime he’ll somehow recover himself in a moment of lucidity out of the deathwish maze…